Monday, January 31, 2005
TOMORROW ARCHIVE!!!
*dances*
-aysha
who's my angel.
id greatly appreciate it if a kind soul would enlighten me.
oo ive been a busy woman.
actually friday was a pretty slack uneventful day..
aha but saturday.
met my mother and brother (who were doing a spot of strategic shopping) at white sands. i got to wear my new camisole=) whee. black and pink i am. anyhoos. we trudged to toko warisan to get aman's songkok. ok at least i trudged.. but i made myself happy by getting mama to buy this raihan cd. =) we then had lunch at some coffee shop where a man tactlessly stared at my mum and asked if her eyes were real. silly git. so theyre green. get over it. *rolls eyes* aman then had to rush off for madrasah. so he took all the bags and left before i finished my noodles.
okay blablabla then we went to penin at last=) roamed ard for a bit not knowing exactly where the guitar shop(s) was/were.. aha then i saw this metal cd shop. teeny space. beyond dark. death metal playing. i had. to go in. had. so i happily convinced my mum tt it was a safe place and dragged her in with me. they dont bloody have opeth. *frowns* oo. everyone in the shop stared at us. conservative covered up ladies werent expected in that shop i suppose.. after finally giving up the search for bwp i decided my guitar was far more impt so we left. and i had to call 'david' for help. *snorts* poserness. so the uncle at the shop kept playing this electric. unfair. my mum unnecessarily repeated tt she wouldnt ever let me have one of my own. because it was too loud. so i did my choosing. and ended up purchasing a guitar which costed much more than the ones the school ordered. gah. so much for doing my own smart shopping. i was too tempted.
i left the guitar at the shop (not for long) to go in search for new sport shoes. i seem to have a strange liking for men's shoes. hm. i dont think im tomboyish.. thats besides the point. the point is.. i got my shoes at the usual shop. collected my guitar and then struggled to move around. hee. but then actresses know how to act cool. so. we got some food and a slurpee and we rotted for quite. a long. time. till it got dark. after which we twiddled to the 518 bus stop. the bus arrived promptly=) so i had to lug the guitar to a seat and i rotted some more. again. alone this time. an hour later we reached home aaaand. my mum discovered a missing shopping bag. aman had lost. the pillowcases plus soap. she was not. happy.
all that while poor faizah was working. met her the following day. at madrasah. she looked nearly dead on sunday morning. lazed through arabic. hee. dont worry dear. u get money=) wee. met hanis also. it has been. awhile. kinda miss that git. i cant. believe. she still calls muzhaffar. *blinks*
chicken prosperity is nice much much. i cheated during pe today. needed to visit the ladies as i was running. so wen i neared the washroom i stopped jogging and went in=) waha. followed by jocelyn, isabel and lynette. after a moment's hesitation, we all thought it was extremely reasonable to hide for a couple of minutes. before joining the other girls on their run back to school. teehee=) therefore situps were a piece of cake. fairuz only came to school during the second break. rahter enthu. we fixed up the chicken banner.
i got home abit late today. okay alot late. had the usual lets-talk-with -vibs-over-fries thing at macs. but i told my mum about it first. no tpj for me. no no. she had an announcement to make wen i got home. the lost pillowcases plus soap bag had been retrieved=) she went back to the place to chk if muddledhead aman had left it there. the tactless man was a thoughtful man after all.
ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan.. *hums*
isabel better like steve vai.
-aysha
Thursday, January 27, 2005
dull morning.
maths lecture was interesting. drawing of weird graphs.
too sick of rice to eat during break.
pon physics lecture. was expecting einsteinman to be lecturing again. what a waste. after the lecture discovered tt it was a new lecturer who was actually interesting. ah well. went onl in the com lab.
fairuz was totally heartbroken. she checked her hp for msgs while we were waiting for the class to leave lt5. msg frm daniel saying tt she missed the most pleasant surprise she could ever have gotten. poor girl. she got so mad. haha. to make things worse she spotted the detestable ip boy. then when everyone finally came out they said the lecturer asked for fairuz. probably to answer some question. they covered for her by saing she was a geog student. not. a happy day for her.
she sulked throughout chem but thank goodness physics prac cheered her up a little. angry fairuz is not. friendly fairuz. maybe tmr will be a better day=) tmr i shall dump things into my locker. whee. locker.
mm. mohd just gave me pudding. my pudding-making mother seemed satisfied tt coming home early (fiveish) was a possibility. i cant believe she expects this all the time. i think it'd be impossible. i can try. but i'll feel like a total loser and of course.. remain a social outcast for eternity. god help me. i need patience.
-aysha
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
david, where are you.
today i feel like a two oner.. like i fit in. =) started the day in class.. only mdm lim was there.. mr lim's wife has given birth! hah. yeah. so mdm lim was blabbering in mandarin and i couldnt understand nearly everything ( i noe ni and yao and stuffs) anyhoos. its settled. we're doing carwash for cip=) whee. *jakun*
the iffy bio prac came at last. the liver thing looks like its got bbq sauce all over it. sick. sick. sick. daniel cut one third of the chunk for me. then clement cut the other third. haha. am i useless. anyways. i din haf to touch the thing. so yah. not too bad. i threw my rubbish in the sink. and daniel poked it into the drain with the glass rod. which then fell into the drain as well. haha.
then my dream came true during physics tutorial. just when i was gg to fall asleep about 2 minutes into the lesson the fire alarm went off=) the mysterious parcel had been discovered. =) =) =) no physics and no chem prac. woo!
thennnn i had guitar after school. i felt like the dumbest person alive but nevermind thatt. the stuff mr francis taught was bloody boring but at least i'll get my basics right.
i reached home late (according to mama) so i'll get transferred to tpjc if i keep it up. wonder if its just a threat.. i dare not underestimate her. i cant help it if i miss vibs. ohwells.
-aysha
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
zwitterions.
dipolar.
beta sheet.
disulphide. bridge.
polypeptide.
alpha helix.
so what's a protein?
fa dont take bio.
just came home about an hour ago. exhausted. i aim to finish all my work by ten. ironically, im wasting my time blogging. i haf to read up bio notes (for the fifth time) and try to comprehend the scientific jargon i see. *sigh* after that. i have maths tutorial and physics graphs to work on. i still have to reply to my angel. and if im not dead by then, i'll email vibha. barely see that twit anymore. gah.
im sorry for needing my space. i would really appreciate it if i could be included. i refuse. to be. an outcast. *shudders* some people should wear shorts instead of long pants. *blinks*
i want to go to the beach with my mummy.
-aysha
Monday, January 24, 2005
gp:
discussion on prostitution.
bio:
i must grind my liver sample on wed.
and.
for some reason, the main topic of the day seemed to be blowing things.
hm.
i have a nipple-like thing on my thigh. wahah.
the milo aunty is my friend. haha.
vibs, i hope your eye gets beter real fast=)
met noorie and nadia at kfc pp after school.
nony, dun stress okay. take things one at a time.. im very proud of you=)
faizah, we must go out. fast.
please fasten your seatbelt.
-aysha
Saturday, January 22, 2005
come back to life dammit.
-aysha
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
it is break time.
S21 is - i think- in the canteen. together.
me and fairuz 'ran' away.
just let me breathe.
but.
please let me fit in.
-aysha
Monday, January 17, 2005
faizah.
where are you?
i miss you.
i wish you were in vj with me. deal with the fear of being the stupidest with me. i havent told you so many things. its been two entire weeks. i barely have energy to call and chat with you like usual. sometimes im scared to call you. i tell myself 'oh im too tired to stay on the phone thaaaat long'. well, im a liar. im afraid that you wont listen to me. im afraid that you wont understand me. because you're rarely with me nowadays.
im dying to know whats going on in your life right now. i get bloody pissed off when my mum tells me things like 'kan faizah got interview smalam' and i actually didnt know. i always. know things before her. she never. updates me on your life. i dont like this.
i dont like things being different. im afraid of being away from you for too long. you're my closest friend in the world. if this continues i'd be really upset. i cant deal with not having my special fa.
i love you.
-aysha
hi, due to limited vacancy, we are unable to accept you to air rifle club. Thanks for attending the trials anyway. :-)
hah. i knew it.
i feel affectionate today. i have no idea why.
i dont belong in vj. im too stupid. i cant keep up. i dont understand chemistry. help me, abah. i think the chem lecturer is an awful witch. wolume of HCl my foot. bah.
-aysha
Saturday, January 15, 2005
im trying to do homework.
i barely read the first paragraph of my article and im already bored.
im hungry.
i need a snack.
hm.
today's library, tomorrow's 'googlary'?
i cannot. believe. that fairuz has completed the assignments.
ive been rotting the whole of today.
i even forgot to return the guitar mag.
crap.
i was in lt5 for bio lecture yesterday. i thought it was chem. until the bio lecturer left and the chem lecturer came in. and she said stuffs about physics. are they all confused.
ee. im lazy.
i wonder if the class had fun during the outing earlier today which i was not allowed to go for.
bah.
give me my pillow.
-aysha
Thursday, January 13, 2005
i forgot to mention yesterday tt i tried out air rifle=)
this eng keat (i think) guy taught me to use the pistol.. so i happily tried it. supercool. i suck. they wont pick me. its okay. training doesnt sound appealing anyways.
today was a very happy day=) haha. very physicsified but alls well.. fai goes mad with me wen pressured by boringity (thanks to einsteinman) and i saw lots and lots of beautiful scenery today=) hahaha..
happy birthday to brandon!
our first break for today was cakeified=) weee! ppl ate off the knife cause we dint have serviettes.. the others used tissue though.. photoness too. nice celebration.. oh and the zhenghaolynette thing seems to be gg pretty good=) wahahaha.. S21 rocks!
after school i had the guitar interview.. marched to the classrm wayyy earlier than told and demanded to go first.. daha. i hope i dint give a bad impression or wad. i want guitar..
then many S21 girls signed up for archive.. nice. free food=) my stupid angel AND mortal havent sent me letters. my angel is - apparently - very busy. grr. hurrrryyyy uppp.
looking forward to tmr=) short day!! and im wearing yvonne's rg uniform.. weee! then og bbq in the evening.. i miss trojans!! plus the beautiful scenery tt will be at ecp.. nenene.
-aysha
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
aysha misses faizah.
my calves are killing me.
homework much much.
practicals arent so bad after all.
shout out to vibs: SMILE!!! ur a victorian with millions of friends. be. happY.
charmed on tv.
tv - homework - tv - homework - tv - homework - tv.
-aysha
Monday, January 10, 2005
mm. day one of official lessons in vjc. boring. sleepyness inducing. tiring.
early in the morning hung ard in canteen with lynette and friends while waiting for the bell to go. caught a moment's glance at my scenery=) *melts*
period number one:
GP tutorial
Mrs Leow- tall and thin freaky lady
she introduced herself blablabla and advised us to read widely=The Straits Times.
crap.
and we must observe.. observe the shadows of the trees and some shit like that..
see why she's freaky..
fairuz labelled her trelawney.
how apt.
period number two:
pe
is the trauma i expected.
the man on the microphone made us jump around, do sit ups and push ups and warm up in the hall. after which we ran. *pissed expression* one km to ecp. and then another km back to school. i didnt die. not too traumatising i guess. then recording of height and weight. lets skip details. pf.
break: S21 ate together. felt horrible afterwards. upset tummy. blegh.
period number three:
bio tutorial
Mr Chua-fairly enthu and fun young man
advised us to be punctual and prepared for all lectures. (more times than deemed necessary)
period number four:
maths lecture
a lecture on maths?? sounds funny. anyhoos-
an iffy lady Ms Ding-obsessed with rules
me no like.
repeated the punctual and prepared thing along with rules on hp, eating and whathaveyou..
period number five:
chem tutorial
Mr Lim-*applauds* this man i like=)
started teasing us with some chem stuff.. ethyl methanoate or methyl ethanoate.
i plan to read up soon. welcome to nerdville.
break: spent time with tk girls in the canteen simply talking about our day so far-lessons, boys, etc. haha. then fairuz and me picked wenny and eric up frm the S21 table (where brandon was eating again, that pig *shakes head*) and went in search of T18 to tell cikgu syed tt we've all dropped malay..
period number six:
malay
fai, eric, wenny and me got lost. we couldnt find T18 and seniors were not very helpful either. so we roamed around aimlessly until the cikgu found us and rescued us to T18 (which wasnt far frm where we were actually)
Cikgu Syed-purposely made the four of us sit and listen to his malay babble about MCS and how we can only drop malay if we got A1 to C6 for hml prelims. his speech was like a million years and in the end we were all allowed to LEAVE. WAHAHAHA. and then he left the room too. looked like he had no students this year. teehee.
i refuse to tampil for any MCS activities thankyou very much and even if you do approach me (the student with so-called higher command of bahasa melayu) i will refuse. hah. so leave me alone. im not malay.
the four of us then went to the library to check it out.. plus fai wanted to search for her darling there.. the friggin library was so darn quiet lah. too quiet in fact. highly uncomfortable. fai and me split frm wenny and eric in search of the him and the yearbook which might have the him. too bad we found nothing. poor fai. then we got sick of the ear splitting silence. and we couldnt find eric and wenny anywhere. so we left. and bumped into the rest of our class.
break: we sat in the hall (just us) and played games.. i know quite alot of two oneners now=) lynette and shaun had to do mashed potato together as forfeit for being sucky concentration players. followed by daniel and fairuz. naha. quite funny.
period number seven:
chem lecture
Ms Lee-self proclaimed tigress
seems an absolute meany. we went through Ar and Mr and mole concept stuffs.. nearly fell asleep.
at last school ended. met vibs near bkshop. dumped guitar ensemble forms at the notice board and saw nicolas on the way back from the ladies.. =) but no match for fairuz's lucky day.. we bumped into the him six bloody times in one day. hmphf.
i am allowed to get a new guitar=) classical only. will do.
-aysha
Saturday, January 08, 2005
saturday.
at long last.
the end of a whole week of incredible fun and enthusiasm.
im going to have a damn good rest before work begins next week.
i found out on tuesday tt i got into S21. its actually the bio chem maths econs class but my ct confirmed tt im in triple. wooh. lucky me. i cant really rmb tuesday clearly. lots of things happened. played alot i guess. i rmb lunch was rice. better than mondays noodles but still blegh.
wednesday was way better. i got to go get my own lunch so i picked the good stuff. the milo cup is huge. i like. i cant rmb wednesday either actually. i had to plan for our play on thursday night (trojans were at the parade square) but since i was an actress i had nothing to do. so i focused more on nicolas (who was climbing the rock). ahaha. bloody cute. anyways i know i went home really late like eightish and mama wasnt happy. she said vj is a nonsense school. *rolls eyes* she was the one who told me to be prepared to be away frm home for long hrs in jc. sheesh.
anyway, thurday i rmb=) very long day. we were told to wear our new vj pe shirt and shorts. *dies* and bring a dark coloured tee for a wet programme. loads of fun=) teaton kept winning everything. we were on a roll. we voted for our fav SAAs using sms voting. ahah. coolness.
then we also had a cca walkabout. i signed up for 5 different ccas. two of which turned out to be fake. those who signed up had to do forfeit. thank goodness they didnt call me up. my classmate was forced to switch shorts with another guy onstage for no reason at tt time too. poor guy. they only had a raincoat each to hide in. haha.
after tt we practiced our play "Vhere is Jack and his Cashewnut tree?" i was the newscaster along with jiaying so we appeared right at the beginning and right at the end. all we did was practice our own lines then fool around cha cha-ing. i haf no idea what our play was actually about. heh.
so tt night (Voscar Night) we performed lah. i saw the bboy backstage. he was an emcee. after our performance we piled at the right side of the hall near the famous four emcees. i said like two words to pussycat. she had these really funky ball earrings. haha. the whole thing ended at 730ish but there was mass dance till abt 830. so teaton hung ard at the parade square again while waiting for our ogls. i think they had a meeting or wad.
we left for dinner at parkway afterwards. bought macs then the whole of trojan crowded the parkway foodcourt. fun fun. after awhile madhuri came rounding up ppl who were done eating and wanted to go home early. i knew id get in trouble for being so darn late so i left with her. called darren and gerald along (pasir ris trojan people). we took fifteen to eunos then took the train home. ive nvr gone home frm school with boys before. theyre actually quite normal. hm. we met feng quan (year two) and ivan at the interchange. we all took twelve. lucky them, they all got off at my old house bus stop. so poor me had a few stops to go alone. abah came to pick me up. mama was already asleep and supposedly very mad. what was i supposed to do? she said i could have dinner..
friday was real fun too=) sea regatta or however its spelt. we took a teaton photo *jumps* and played captains ball, tug of war and burial. tts where the team with the most number of nearly buried (excluding head) members wins. obviously teaton won again. with thirteen buried members. i was the fourth to get sand all over me. after li ping took photos of us looking stupid, stuck in the sand, we were finally freed and sandified. i was beyond uncomfortable. then there was also a hunt thingey for map pieces. wic was interrupted by some game tt everyone had to watch. two ppl stand on stick things above the water and they try to knock each other down using a bag of cushy-looking things. nicolas played=)
oh i forgot to mention tt after tug of war ppl started dumping other ppl into the sea. i got scared off and ran to the grass part with the other cowards. haha. watch everyone else get carried to the sea and laugh at them. then the year twos attacked nicolas. too bad they were blocking my view. so i had no choice. i had. to move nearer to see clearly. ahh adorable. tts wen the teatons spotted me in my dry tshirt. unfortunately i got thrown in as well. supercold. i guess it wasnt too bad. i got to see nicolas struggle. hee.
the whole thing ended with mass dance again. whiny whiny- which im getting better at, neutron- my favourite=), the friendship one- i got a lousy partner yesterday. bah. la bamba- which nicolas taught me (WAHAHA) i want you- ooh i want you i dunno if i need you but ooh id die to find out VEE JAY and the unknown dance- which i pretended to know.
back at school we grabbed our stuff and headed to the bathroom to shower but the queue was as long as the great wall of china so we went straight to parkway to change. i reached home at about 6 (earliest the whole week) only to find tt no one was home and tt i had no keys. so i sat at the bench and waited for aman to come home. i gave up waiting after 40 mins and went to farah for keys. she came over too. but not for long. miss tt little twit. i love her hair..
yea so tts my orientation week in a nutshell. a big nutshell. im really tired and i nearly lost my voice but alls well. i had a great time=) studies begin next week. ah. i must appreciate my weekend. *goes back to sleep*
-aysha
Monday, January 03, 2005
they dont bluff. you really do go home late in jc. what an exhausting day. initially worried tt i was gg to be late for sch but reached the bus stop to see millions of aliens walking into vj. happily sauntered in with prap met vibs and hung ard at the concourse not knowing what to do except catch up. then we realised we had to register. i was by my lonesome self in the E queue. made friends with a girl named abigail. dunman i thinks. saw xian ming. but too far to yell hello. maybe tmr.
9am- long unnecessary not so brief briefing regarding subject combinations. everyone seems to think im crazy for wanting triple science. well, sorry. ive made up my mind. first choice. i just hope i get. i duwanna do econs. (2nd choice- bio, chem, maths & econs)
then we went into our grps. go trojans=) so we talk talk talk to our grp members.. i cant remember their names for nuts. im useless with chinese names so the only ones i remember are stella, angelina, fiona, yvonne and yvonne. and jiaying. the only chinese name i remember. shes rather fun. ex drama scg girl.. perhaps its a drama thing=) we played games and stuffs. cheers. and the whiny whiny dance. i think ive forgotten it already. sheesh. and i have to learn la bamba after school tmr.
i bet i'll be beyond tired by friday. gah. maybe napfa wont be too hard if i jump around as much as this all the time.. hm. by 5 i get reeeeally tired and sleepy.. so i wasnt too enthu anymore.. we had an og meeting in lt5 then we troy-ed back to the hall to get our stuff. paid the year twos for shirt shorts and collar pin then we were dismissed at last. but my stupid backpack got mixed up with someone else's. i opened it to find a boy's shirt. beyond weird. ahah. so i left it with a senior and thought what the hell i dont need my backpack. i'll just demand for the file.
met vibs after tt and we went to parkway together. she only came to company me that darling=) bought a pretzel and sprite then took fifteen home. slept to the beautiful sound of metallica. hah. it was dark wen i reached the interchange at last. now im home. im going to eat then i probably wont have much energy to do anything else so i get to sleep early. mm.
the victorian is leaving=)
-aysha
Sunday, January 02, 2005
im scared of new school.
i wanna go back to tk. i wonder who gets to sit behind my lovely vandalised desk in four one. i want to be surrounded by sonia, sarah, esther, nandini and nana again. i want ketiak to torture me with geography again. industrialisation is when manufacturing industries assume greater importance in society. i miss sarah's grotesque mess. i miss our rubbish bin. i want tan ying to make me stand at the phy lab door for no reason again. i want to do practical with jeslyn. i want mr connor! i want drama back. i want to be in sec two. i miss mdm khoooooo! *sniff*
what if nobody frm tk is in my og. what if i look retarded in the photo they're taking. what if people think im horrible. what if i dont go to school with prap and end up searching for the concourse place on my own like a loser. can i take my mother to school? no. *smacks forehead* stupid. stupid. stupid. im rambling nonsense. i want to go to vj. right. i do. really. *breathes*
*smiles* i am a confident girl. yes. i didnt learn nothing from drama. i will walk into the school the quintessence of confidence; a carefree ball of charisma. No one will hate me. im such a liar. agh. *confident smile* i am ready. bring it on.
-aysha
Saturday, January 01, 2005
2005.
five is such an ugly number.
just two more days and i get to go to vj.
wow.
happy belated birthday to darling farah=)
watched may yesterday. at nandini's new place. it is such. a freak show. i nearly puked. pool was good too. no cheating. and. it was so nice to come home to a quiet house. the boys had sleptover at khala's. xbox-ness. i hope they stay there till late. hah. poor khala.
the crusty pimple has left ages ago. but then i woke up this morning extra pimplified. two. new ones. gah.
you label me. i'll label you. so i dub thee unforgiven.
-aysha