Saturday, July 30, 2005
it took me six months to get used to vj life. maybe i become more wary of my surroundings as i grow older.. i mean. tk was like an instant home.
i think perhaps i think too much. its quite a burden to have a lot on your mind and no one you could really talk to. they say its a girl thing. girls need to talk it out to feel better. and yeah i think its true. cause everyday that i keep this to myself it just eats me from inside and it gets harder to live with it. but theres little else i could do. there is no other option.
my playing days are nearly over. abah took the liberty of reminding me that my self-declared mugging period begins next week. not a pleasant thought. strangely, i feel ready to start focussing. its about time anyway. the worst thing that can happen to me is failing every paper for promos and end up taking geogrpahy next year. (my love for geography cannot be explained with words)
i feel distant.
have i been keeping a distance from you?
i think i have. and i dont know why.
i need a good read. now.
-aysha
Saturday, July 23, 2005
ive expected weekly sunday updates of this inactive blog to become the norm since the term began.. since im so busy with so many things -_-' however since im free today (no cip-cause i dont feel too fab) i decided to sit and type for a bit. i signed up for interhouse captain's ball with athene on monday.. then lyn and athene joined the lunch-with-fai thing.. vibha was there too.. forgot where hanisah was.. anyways. we were eating at bk. and vibha's life changed forever(: more about that later.. haha..
tuesday was the last rehearsal for tarian. and i was still clueless about the last part of the dance where i have to fling a gay umbrella around. i think i have a newfound addiction to chocolate ice-blend bubble tea. its like i have to buy at least one a day..
i was supposed to go for track on wednesday and meet hanis but i couldnt get out of guitar.. luckily too. they were choosing positions for everyone in the nibouri ensemble. THANK GOD i got prime. wee! i fell sick on wed. sniffling everywhere i went. irritating.
so i felt all icky and stuffs so i ponned school on thursday. cut my hair after i went to the clinic. its a disaster now. stupid i-dont-speak-engish hairdresser. so much for being budget. slept at home until the afternn. after wic i went to school anyway. felt this responsibility to at least turn up for tarian rehearsal. blah. i didnt wanna screw up the performance rightt.
yesterday i went to school. cultural fiesta. hate hate. anyhoos. i ponned all lessons. haha. supposed to go for 3 tutorials and half a lecture. i thougt 'whats the point of gg for half a lecture??' so i dint go for tt. and the three tutorials were chem, maths and bio. chem is tt horrible sub. maths is the other horrible sub. and i didnt prepare bio tutorial. so pon lah. sat and bitched at the spider benches with hanisah, vibha, deepa and meghna.
until everyone suddenly had to go off. so i hung around the mcs booth thing and sort of watched them set up the booth. heh. went round buying foods at the diff stalls. dint bother to help with the guitar booth either. wow. im so useless. yea then it was time to get ready for performance. so i met up with the girls and we did ourselves up. and waited for our turn in the gym. i knew i wasnt prepared but i wasnt nervous. i dont know why im like that!
amazingly i didnt screw up. ahah! i was so glad when we reached the twirling the umbrella bit cause it meant the whole thing was nearly OVER! i wanted to strangle those ppl who yelled my name. eghh. so embarrassing. but heck. the whole school will forget by monday(:
so after school yesterday, me, vibha and hanisah went to bk for lunch. bk again. vibha's idea. any guesses why? haha. yesyes. shant embarrass her with the details but yeah. the three of us made friends with this person(: and i must say we made a LOT of progress! hah.
i love when you do that hocus pocus to me
the way that you touch
you've got the power to heal
you give me that look
its almost unreal
its almost unreal..
-aysha
Sunday, July 17, 2005
wah.
i is damn tired.
had a major hectic week.
met fai after school on monday. to buy hanisah's wonderful birthday present(: haha aloha aloha oh hanisah!! and we bumped into prap and aqil at macs..
then on tuesday i had tarian practice. rams brought all the props. like the tudung saji and the kains and the payungs. aghh gayness. i SO dont want to perform for cultural fiesta nx wk!! bloody paisehh.
after guitar on wednesday (we learnt a nice new emo song btw) vib and i met prap and ster for dinner! and well, we took gay passport photos in the cramped machine thingit. heehoo. and wednesday was ashraf's birthday..
which means thurday was mine! weee(: my friends are all so lovely! haha.. i still cant believe tt athene and lynette got me a tiara!! haha.. gayness! mama took me to a sushi place (shes such a DARLING i swear i was so happy lah) and we met abah and the boys for dinner.. nicenice.
friday i climbed the rock wall. for the first time ever. hee. FUN. some guy was helping me climb.. but after a while my fingers just died so i kinda missed the next rock thing. so i fell. im so glad i didnt scream and embarrass myself to death. and then i was just swinging and swinging in the air.. ha. best. oh i forgot to say. athene, zheng hao and i went to buy durians frm parkway before rock climbing.. and the durians scratched all of our legs while we attempted to walk back to school (zheng hao's crazy idea of being budget.)
yesterday went to the old folks' home again.. last week uncle rmbed me(: aww. how touching. we hid the durians around the home in preparation for the scavenger hunt. then we wheeled the residents aroun the home in search of the durians.. my poor uncle dint get to find any.. so anyway after the whole 'hunt' was over i just brought him back to the auditorium to let him talk to his friends and they were all happily eating the durians together.. i OPENED a durian thankyou verymuch! ok so athene chopped it to death. but i pried it open.. alah so pro. haha.
so after the whole cip thing i met faizah.. was being stupid with her.. as usual. heeh. and we played pool at parkway there.. losers unite. hee. met vibs afterwards. went to nandz's place. the twerp is so hot lah. and the food was hot too(: weets. met akanksha, nisha, swapna and gyan. felt a TAD out of place being one of the few non-indians there.. heh. but then i din really stay long. khala refused to let faizah stay out too late so we went home.
so today im dead tired. and i just want to sleep. but i have homework. nyeah.
happy birthday zheng hao!!
the only other july baby in s21(: its strange. first he's in my flick. then he's in my class. and then he's in my pw group. coincidence? hm.
-aysha
Sunday, July 10, 2005
i went to an old folks' home for the first time in my entire life yesterday morning. i thought i'd give it a shot since i've only worked with children in the past. initially i was quite apprehensive regarding the visit. what if i couldnt communicate with them? with kids i know i can just shove sweets and chocolates in their faces and im suddenly their favourite person in the world.
ya but then i went anyways.. met up with my clasmates at newton mrt station (which is freaking far away from home which means i took a long time to get there which means i woke up at the crack of dawn just to visit the old folks dont u think im such a darling) so we took a bus and athene made us get off one stop earlier. but the walk was quite nice.. i MIGHT have seen aminah with the kayakers but im not sure. *shrugs*
so blablabla we arrived at the home. we had to sign in (apparently because there might be some contagious disease or some nonsense story tt lyn told me. haha.) then the guys went to the men's ward and us girls went to the ladies' ward. the women were ALL in wheelchairs in tt room. then there were a couple of nurse women who randomly selected people to participate in the lets-all-sit-together-do-art-and-chitchat session downstairs. so each girl wheeled one lady to the downstairs place right. and they were all being friendly and talking to the lady they were sending downstairs. except me. cause the lady cant understand english. -_-'
so i was like mute all the way downstairs. but i was being extra smiley lest i appear antisocial. so ppl started preparing the art materials on the table and telling the old folks' abt the plan for the morning. it was nice to hear frm the guys tt some of the men frm the home can speak english(: however they were already talking to some girls who arrived before i did.. so i thought nehh tts okay i wont DIE because of the laguage barrier. right?
so. somehow i paired myself up with this man in a wheelchair at the end of the table. "uncle, would u like to do a collage? is this picture okay for you?" i winced while waiting for his reply.. please understand me please.. and then he nodded! HAH! i was so overjoyed tt he responded so i decided i will stick. to this man. so i took the little crepe paper balls and squeezed some white glue onto a postcard and began teaching the uncle to make the collage thing. all throughout my instructions the uncle nodded and smiled at me. perhaps he's shy..
so me and the uncle just continued making the collage in silence and even though the collage-making was rather uneventful - okay extremely boring - the uncle seemed to enjoy himself thoroughly and he went on and on pasting the little balls onto his picture. it kinda showed me that those old folks' barely have any activities to do. no wonder they like doing this boring sticking-balls-onto-paper project.. so i entertained the uncle and helped him with the art piece.
before i knew it he was done. like waaay before the others. so i took the construction papers and asked him if he wanted to draw. and he nodded again(: "is this colour okay?" and he nodded again(: maybeeee he understands english but he doesnt speak it.. so i let him choose his crayons and i started drawing a flower on my side of the paper. and he copied my drawing on his side of the paper. we coloured our drawings in silence and soon we were done. again before all the others. so i asked him "do u want to do another collage?" and he nodded.. ok so he's still not bored of this yet.. i thought id get irritated but he was smiling throughout the morning and it was so pleasant to see what a difference im making so i found it quite rewarding..
yea so cut the story short in the end we finished three art pieces and i wanted him to write his name on them.. but he didnt seem to understand me.. so i got matilda to ask him in mandarin. did he not understand a single word ive said the whole day?? so then he began writing his name in the unreadable chinese characters. he was still smiling and he was showing off (okay sort of) to another uncle.. so fineee. i wasted my energy talking to him.. but i made him happY and tts wad mattered.. quiteee pleasant! satisfying. yeah. tts the word.
-aysha
Sunday, July 03, 2005
wow. feels like an eternity since my last entry.. lets see.. rough updates.. spiderman was on tv last wk(: love. then it was exams from monday right up till friday. sick. i dont seem to have an affinity for the three-hour paper system. i get fidgety after sitting in the exam hall after about two hours.
i stopped doing physics altogether, 2h 15min into the paper.. happily entertained myself by making my pens stand on my table while i doodled on the mcq paper. all the papers were ridiculously difficult. felt like my endless effort put into preparing for the exams had gone to waste. though malay was surprisingly doable. *beams* hopefully tts one subject i passed. i shud prepare for remedial lessons. ironically, im considering taking S papers. lets all laugh at the silly goon now. ha ha ha.
right so anyways, went to town on friday afternn to let loose and totally erase thoughts of endoplasmic reticulum and sigma notation and whatever else polluting my brain capacity. met sya too. hilarious woman. tons of good for fai's ego. speaking of fai. we met saleh too(: hee.
yesterday i visited the binsemait residence after a thousand surrmpdygavillion millenia. and saw the xbox. (: got myself a buttache sitting there playing for so long. and i made good use out of faizah's handphone. (insert sound effect: faizah snorting at me) so then last night we all had this big family dinner at godknowswhere and it was fairly pleasant. i was so enticed by the very appearance of this dish i saw on the menu. unfortunately it turned out to be tom yam. and aysha hates. tom yam. so i ate aman's food. wookaka. and my fruit punch was glorious. really.
right. end of of update. i stocked up on yoghurt earlier today. anti ageing formula. heehee. so. does anybody else have the heebie jeebies? no.
so shuttup.
-aysha