Sunday, January 02, 2005
im scared of new school.
i wanna go back to tk. i wonder who gets to sit behind my lovely vandalised desk in four one. i want to be surrounded by sonia, sarah, esther, nandini and nana again. i want ketiak to torture me with geography again. industrialisation is when manufacturing industries assume greater importance in society. i miss sarah's grotesque mess. i miss our rubbish bin. i want tan ying to make me stand at the phy lab door for no reason again. i want to do practical with jeslyn. i want mr connor! i want drama back. i want to be in sec two. i miss mdm khoooooo! *sniff*
what if nobody frm tk is in my og. what if i look retarded in the photo they're taking. what if people think im horrible. what if i dont go to school with prap and end up searching for the concourse place on my own like a loser. can i take my mother to school? no. *smacks forehead* stupid. stupid. stupid. im rambling nonsense. i want to go to vj. right. i do. really. *breathes*
*smiles* i am a confident girl. yes. i didnt learn nothing from drama. i will walk into the school the quintessence of confidence; a carefree ball of charisma. No one will hate me.
im such a liar. agh. *confident smile* i am ready. bring it on.
-aysha