aysha

Saturday, April 30, 2005

sports day was quite fun whaaaat.

alot of ppl wanted to pon. including myself initially. was in dire need of sleep. i miss lazing ard whining tt i had nothing to do. but anw. i stayed in sch for spots day yest. waited sooo long to get my aquila shirt. i think the senior's shirts are nicer.. and pegasus shirt is ugly. hah.

aquila got to sit under the shade. *beams* the first match was the mascot race. everyone kept pointing to santosh saying oh look see that eagle is our mascot. all along i was wondering.. what eagle?? the costume thing was a total penguin.

cheerleading was the best part. it made staying back so worth it. haha. jolencia would know what i mean.. fai missed out alot too. hee. yea so aquila was pretty enthu compared to the other houses but the aquila yr2s were quite. unenthu. hm.

so when the whole thing was over we had to sit on the grass waiting for the awards to be given out and the champion house to be announced. then my hp batt went flat. hmphf. so obviously ursa won house champ. dont we all know why=) haha. after singing the victorian anthem and the cheer i found vibha and we were gg to leave..

but there was mas dance. so ex tk ppl did whiney2 followed by tk philosophy and tk anthem together=) wee. after tt wara and i dragged vibha to *ahem* mathan *ahem* so they could dance the friendship dance.. haha.. he's too shy man. so blablabla after danedancedanceing vib and i went to swensens to claim our ice cream wic deepa was supposed to pay for. they had all finished by the time we arrived. but ohwells deepa was only treating gst. like.. wth?!

then i met noor. at delifrance. so hanisah vib and i rotted there with her, totally disrupting her little amaths revision session. i am so going out with her next week. alone=) oo. and then i called *ahem* mathan to come to delifrance to say hi. haha. and he eventually did. he didnt stay for long though. his friends were wating for him at bk so we let him go. but only at the same time as we let vibha go. huahua.

then i met aunty amy. who left after like 2 secs to do some shopping.. then hanisah and i went to the ladies. and i met umik and aunty ning and nadia and nabila at mph.

and then i went home. and i stopped at bedok again. but there were no freaky men last night.

and i got into trouble for coming home late.

sometimes i wonder. will things ever be the same again?
and sometimes i wonder. what will the future bring?

-aysha

Thursday, April 28, 2005

so the naggy woman has complained to mr lim (at last) about the constant dissapearing acts by myself and my fellow classmates during maths tutorials. haha. mr lim was not. happy. he toned down in his chem lesson today. i think his teaching style is too.. unsuitable for seventeen and eighteen yr olds. like. we're not in preschool hello.

a man tried to pick me up after school. at bedok.
man: *bumps into me* "oh sorry"
me: "its ok" *walks away in hurry to search for bloody toilet*
"nice smile" *flirts*
umm.. *panicks* get lost..?! "er. thanks" *quickens pace*
"so u going home?"
"yes"
"oh. u live around here?"
"no" and buzz off! *walks to macs*
"hey where are u going? how abt we sit and get a drink?"
"no im in a hurry. really"
freak.

something came over me. i went to the malay webbie. yes fai, u can faint. i realised mcs organises hari raya outings. i feel so left out. hanisah? help.

-aysha

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

so i didnt go to school today. missed tutorials and practicals and guitar. haha. genius i am. im not even tt sick. i felt worse last night. so when i woke up this morning i said i still felt sick even though i was actually more on the sleepy side.. hah.
managed to get my work organised and keep track of which tutorials tt are still incomplete and study some bio. and watch american idol. oh tv rocks.

habib and baba are still sleeping over. which means im still stuck with tt piece of cloth (which highly resembles a giant handkerchief) in replacement of my quilt. the weather sucks.

oh and mama's voice is baaaaack(: at last.

-aysha

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

i love my xs shorts.

happy birthday prap!! i loves yuu!

-aysha

Sunday, April 24, 2005

i went for an NUS medicine talk on friday.

i feel so stressed and disadvantaged because i didnt like join med soc and srs and stuffs. sure i love the idea of studying medicine but im not so nerdy. id rather play guitar than sacrifice my already very little time to do even more work. nah-uh.

anw after the talk i met mama, aman and then abah at tm. did some shopping and had dinner. kinda missed mohd. (who was probably irritating the hell out of khala.. hahs) mama kept going on and on about how gorgeous she was. she's much worse than me. *rolls eyes* so we went to ntuc to look for grapes. and mama decided to buy the asam stuffs. apparently its called mo far kor.

mo far kor.

kinda sounds vulgar.. hms.

-aysha

Monday, April 18, 2005

"awak sekolah mana dulu?" cikgu whatshisface (who popped in my classrm to interrupt cikgu salim's lesson) asked me. i think his name is rahman. heck. anyways i answered "tanjong katong"
"oo.. tanjong katong? awak alkaff kan?" he asked.
how the heck does he know? what? do these men discuss me over their kopi-s or what??
"a'ah.. kenapa cikgu?"
"awak kenal sakinah alkaff tak? dia pun alkaff"
um. duh. u just said her name was sakinah alkaff boh otak!
"uh.. tak.." i replied, thinking tt this sakinah he was talking about was one of his ex-students or something..
"oh.. cikgu tanya pasal dia dulu mengajar sama cikgu kat tanjong katong.. dia dulu ajar english literature.. skarang dia kerja kat mendaki. oh awak tak kenal eh?"
mendaki??
"aunty nina?? oo kenal kenal! sepupu abah saya.."
"ah aunty dia.." cikgu salim butted in. oh you parrot. then when cikgu whatshisface was satisfied interrogating me he left. and cikgu salim's mulut laser start. jabbering away about arabs and bintalibs and yadayadayada. yalah cikgu. let lay queen feel left out. ish!

then after malay (which was quite endurable-without much acting on my part) was the dreaded chem lecture assessment. i was right to dread it. it was So. friggin. hardd. but lucky me i got to sit right next to genius jia wei AND behind chem whiz jansen. HAH. i couldnt peek over jansens shoulder though. but depending on jia wei was NOT. helpful. he writes superfast. i dont deliberately copy off him. i try. only after realising tt there was no way i could miraculously understand the question would i peep at jia wei's script. butttt. by that time he'd have been at the next page. the man is too smart. i had to depend on myself to get through the paper. which was all for the better, i wanted to test myself anyways. see how bad i'd fail.. i saw one of jia wei's answers. and mine was the exact same!!! i wanted to die of happiness! confirmed 2 marks out of 40! i felt so. educated. haha.

after school was bad. i lost. my baby. fai crashed. so me and vibs were hanging with her and hanisah. tt was fine. until i decided against ponning guitar to watch soccer (in which brandon scored the last goal i heard!! yays.) so i went to guitar rm to get my guitar lah. and it wasnt there!! i know my guitar bag. i did not. see my guitar bag. where the hell. was my guitar. i searched anyways despite knowing tt none of the leftover guitars were mine.. then i gave up. and walked to the practice venue guitarless. like a retard. shan ming and sarah were wagging their figners at me and vibs for being late. " i lost my guitar" i told them. so leave me alone before i break your limbs for not having anyone watch the bloody guitar rm when ur taking attendance.
"ha? another lost guitar? walau." says sarah.
another?
ok. thats not comforting. get me my guitar now! how am i supposed to practice? air guitar??
the yr 2s told me to 'borrow' one of the leftover guitars in the guitar rm for the day. so i used one. but the owner came chasing me for it shortly afterwards. so i had to take another leftover gutiar. only one of which actually had six strings. at least no one chased me for tt. so i had to make do with tt while sulking.
the moment we were dismissed i practically dashed to the guitar rm to see if the syf ppl had left their guitars there. nothing. so i stood outside the room and watched lt1 like a hawk. waiting to pounce on the evil dimwit who STOLE my baby from me. i paid so much for it too. i refused to go home guitarless. i waited for like an eternity. until finally the blistering idiot strolled to the guitar rm. i saw my bag frm a mile away. even vibha knew it was mine. i was about to go give tt shithead a piece of my mind when he saw me approach him. "eh is this ur guitar? the takamine?"
"YES its MINE"
"eh sorry ah.."
*glares*
"you have a nice guitar btw" *pathetic smile*
not having the courage to yell at a senior, i mumbled a yeah whatever thanks and left. hmphf.

-aysha

Sunday, April 17, 2005

half my head consists of white hair.
talk about premature ageing. its depressing.

anyways.

happy birthday to jocelyn!!

mohd has some mould growing experiment. sick.

clement kept scaring me about taking medicine in university. he was going on and on about his sick tales of twisting the necks of mice and dissecting frogs. blegh. oh. apparently i have to get a minimum grade of a2 for malay to qualify for admission? haaaha. should i just give up now?

-aysha

Saturday, April 16, 2005

shariff misses nandini.

-aysha

mr lim told abah that im a quiet girl. ahaaaahaha. yesyes. im eternally mute and i only speak with special ppl.. haha.. sound familiar? no no. but i refuse to be associated with such beings. nor mats. no fai. i dont. flirt with mats. i have better taste than that. haha. besides. im not minah enough to epitomize the ideal girlfriend of a mat. andd. i have my own other.. interests. hee(:
i think hafiz is angry at me. i wonder what i did. *chews lip* oo. happy advanced birthday to jocelyn!

sometimes i wish my mum had more time for me.. so she could hug me everyday and tell me that i'll be alright and that she'll always be there for me. *sigh*

-aysha

Friday, April 15, 2005

owkayy. so mats bawah block know my namee. i am rather freaked out..

-aysha

today's the first time in a long time that i came home early (ie 2pm). supposed to watch mohd while everyone else goes to aman's meet the parents thingit. i wish i could sleep. sleep is like. luxury now.
ive been sleeping for about 4-5hrs each day. which totally isnt enough. i calculated that the past four days ive had approximately twenty-one and a half hours of sleep. on the average i only receive 5 hours and twenty-two minutes of sleep a day. mr bio lecturer says teenagers should get at least nine hours and fifteen minutes of sleep each day. therefore i am short of fifteen and a half hours of sleep.
now if i were to use my weekend to catch up on sleep, i'd be left with a mere seven waking hours on saturday and sunday each. i still have to shower and eat and go for madrasah and go to my grandmother's house. i dont see when i can revise for my chem in time for monday's lecture assessment. how brilliant. =)

things to repent for: wasting time.

i have so much growing up to do.

-aysha

Thursday, April 14, 2005

kerukunan keluarga. sharifah? sleep. sleep. nescafe!! adakah ia penting? sharifah? haha. soccerprapbohtak. boh otak. brainless. !! tolong jawab soalan saya, sharifah. gejala? i wanted it all for myself. not green. NOT green! sorry. GEJALA. awake. gogogogogo. forces! where's my pencil? i will tell your civics tutor. haha. wait, what time is it? civics tutor. ehhh! assessment. yes. rueben studdard. WHERE is my pencil?? im resolving it mister. just get lost and leave me alone. sharifah!! egg. light handphone. light head. lets float=) twentyfive?? trigo is hard. i will clear my mind. im a sotong. i swear. shut up!! i will tell. your civics tutor. pon? yes! i think the library is a perfect - DONT!! im going home. delta Q IS equal to delta U. right? oo. pain. aysha u want cookies? OUCH. sometimes i wish everone would stop asking me.. GET LOST!

-aysha

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

i got caught.
i did not attend mr michael lim's physics tutorial. and then he saw me.
outside chem lab.
"sharifah, why didnt u attend my tutorial?"
im dead. im dead. im dead.
"nevermind. i will tell your civics tutor."

-aysha

Monday, April 11, 2005

i had an interesting bus ride home today. i took thirty one from parkway with fai and prap. but then i alighted at tanah merah to change to twelve. met jolencia for a second but then her thirty eight arrived. i bid her farewell and accepted that i had to entertain myself the rest of the way home. when the bus came at long last, and i sat myself down, propping my guitar on my feet, i wondered to myself, "would i ever be as fat as that lady over there someday?" then i felt guilty. how could i possibly think lowly of a complete stranger who might actually be a nice woman. so i changed my target. my gaze fell upon a fellow teenager. she was dressed in home clothes and green slippers. i was about to turn away but a gnawing feeling told me to look a little longer. i needed to know who she resembled. so familiar. then it hit me. ah. she looked nearly exactly like one of my tk drama juniors. however something was wrong with this girl. i couldnt place it. so i kept myself busy by ocassionally glancing her way to hopefully put my finger on her flaw. she was sweet looking. pretty even. but what was wrong..? was it her hair? i looked harder. then i realised. her eyebrows!
i nearly fainted.
i was so visually impaired. perhaps my contact lenses had dried up and blurred my sight. her eyebrows were obviously drawn on. but they were straight. it looked as though she had used a ruler to draw her 3cm long eyebrows. furthermore, the eyebrows were slanted. if i had drawn an imaginary line down her nose, each eyebrow would have formed an angle of 120 degrees with the imaginary line. disastrous.
feeling satisfied to have discovered her misfortune, i began to feel guilty again. i had to stop having horrid thoughts about other people. so i looked away and stared blankly into the tvmobile. after a while, a young man boarded the bus and he happened to walk past the tvmobile, thus catching my attention. not due to any desirable physical features though. rather unfortunate-looking if i might say so. but sticking to my earlier resolution of not having evil thoughts, i persevered and kept my eyes on the tv screen, pretending to understand the ridiculous candid camera jokes.
now this i did not bring upon myself. i could feeeel the man's eyes boring into me. i was left with no other option but to return his stare. it is a widely known fact that if someone stares at you, you simply have to stare back before that someone shifts his or her gaze away in embarrassment. this man however, did not. he was a rare case who decided to use my same strategy to get me to look away. i. never. give in. so we stared at each other. i think that man was amazing. he totally exceeded my expectations. usually, these rare cases give up and let me win after about thirty seconds. unless they're bangladeshi men. i am never to challenge a bangladeshi man who stares at me. they are the undefeatables. i let them win after a minute or so. as i was saying, the man in the bus was remarkable. he refused to look elsewhere even after i relentlessly stared at him for two consecutive minutes. for the first time ever, i lost to a non-bangladeshi man.
then the bus came to a stop at my bus stop. i carried my guitar, tapped my ezlink and left the bus, recollecting the details of my journey to later blog about.

now that i've blogged about it i come to a conclusion. i am pathetic.

-aysha

Sunday, April 10, 2005

aysha is a hott nugget.

-aysha

Saturday, April 09, 2005

oh ya. i didnt get through exco interview for guitar. and i have a new malay classmate. and he's not malay. his name's jonathan. im an embarrassment. i know.

-aysha

oo look who's backk to blogg.
the busy victorian finds time to pen her thoughts at last.

after a week++ of depression and stress, music fest cheered me up=)
and yes, so did you ashraf. thanks for listening.
i was one out of the only two ppl wearing scarf in school yest. ahha. weirdness. so many love affairs.. hehee. funfun. and crazy risky phototaking.
hari's grp rocks!! damn cuute=) michaeljacksonness. vibhaness indeed. you enjoyed yourself thoroughly didnt you dear?, *hints* haha.. vibs mum cooks excellently.

update on cute men of the world:

mr francis
mr chem bonding lecturer

the chem lecturer is so hilarious. an idiot who screeches definitely. but entertaining at the same time. v animated. and athene noted tt he sits with his chest out. haha. he tends to emphasize his words: hydrogen bonnnnnnDing, the molecules are very far awaaaayy, poperty. *shakes head*

pw has begun. and my damn skirt still has not been collected. mmph.

then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel was just a freight train comin your way..

-aysha