aysha

Monday, May 30, 2005

well.
alot has been happening.
maybe.
friendships are so hard to deal with in jc because.
we're old enough to analyse every baby detail.
every tiny action.
every measly word.
and we have enough brains at this age to approach ppl.
and demand explanations.

at a younger age nobody cared about any consequences.
a friend does something so be it.
why look so deep into it?

why is it so hard now?

-aysha

Sunday, May 29, 2005

why do i feel like i havent got a friend in the world.

-aysha

i can really get absorbed into music. scareee.
today rot at home some more so boring. apparently im grounded. for two freaking weeks. yea so dont bother asking me out. -_-'
theres nothing to eat at home. aghh okok i miss school alright.

i think im a BIG girl now! let me make my own decisions can??

stop. controlling. my lifeeee!

-aysha

Saturday, May 28, 2005

ha ha cikgu. i ponned NE quiz. felt really really bad afterwards.. for ditching farhanah though. not for cikgu. anyhoos.. came down to vj at ard eleven to get stuffs frm the locker.. met bel, wenny, luke and brandon (who were doing pw) at concourse.. when they were done all of us (minus brandon) went to cine. to meet the rest of the class..
we din actually see them cause they were busying themselves at Kbox.. haha.. we ate at es teler (courtesy of wenny) not bad.. then we watched madagascar! ahh so cuute(: i like to move it move it.. i like to move it move it.. i like to move it move it.. y'all like to.. MOVE IT! rights. we then met the rest of the class and walked to heeren. where we met up with fai(: walked to taka.. to look for hair dye and face masks at watsons. hee.
at lynette's house we all marvelled at the jacuzzi and her um.. kangaroodogs. anyhoos.. dyed isabel's hair while fai and lynette worked on jolencia's hair. haha dyeing hair can be so fun when ur with ur friends.. their hair didnt turn out to be very brown but it was definitely a diff colour. oh success. so i was eating ice cream and watching tv not realising the time.. and then when i did i knew i was dead. it was way past my curfew.. ha ha. so i got in trouble wen i reached home. met prinya at the interchg. wasnt quite done talking to him though.. ohwells.

-aysha

Thursday, May 26, 2005

okay cikgu. so you love me. u dont have to keep telling the whole world about me. such tt victor yang SEARCHED for me this morning and actually FOUND me in physics tutorial. like. i dont frikkin wanna go for that NE quiz thingit thankyouverymuch. i am totally falling ill by tonight. i refuse. to display my fluency in malay. or lack thereof rather..

-aysha

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

happening day indeed.
4 periods of school then dismissal. had breakfast at pwae macs with jos b4 meeting lynette, athene, meiyian and chien wei at cine cartel. after wic isabel joined us. jos and i took neos with joshuakuek (who happened to be at cine as well) and then we took neos again (the second time with the girls). met sarah nadia at e neoprint shop(: she was still sore abt her soccer team losing to meridian at the semifinals. i was feeling super excited abt soccer.
so then we girls walked ard cine. walk walk walk until alan came to meet chien. so we split. the couple went off and lyn and bel went taka while the rest of us went heeren. athene and meiyian went to look for clothes. jos and i went to hmv to find my s&m. wic costs 45 friggin dollars! wic i didnt have on me at said time. so whoever reading this: my birthday is on the fourteenth of july. HINT HINT. (its a music cd btw. metallica. s&m is the album i want. yes. thankyou.) so blablabla in the end zhenghao joined the taka ppl and we all met up and went to kallang. for the long awaited soccer finals=)
it was so hot at the stadium. and packed. i saw nur hidayat 6a. he totally dint rmb me. haha. there was no space for us to all sit together so we split. again. i sat with jos and kuek. then i met hanis. who introed me to her entire school. haha. we planned to meet up after the match to have dinner together or something. then I ditched her wen the game was abt to begin. there was more space when the sec sch kids left so we moved and ended up with our senior class. wic meant cookies and faiz's digicam=) weets. ooh then prap and fai came. but prap sat with dunno who. fai did her hair again. and im sure she was shocked nearly to death when she saw someone. haha. anyhoos. the match was so. nerveracking.
victorians began cheering right at the start of the match. quite enthu. no goals right up till half time. second half mj scored. i nearly fainted. so nervous ready. cheered our guys on like MAD. we were running out of time and everyone was like "aiya cannot make it ready lah" and then a miracle happened(: there was a foul so we got a free kick. and we scored!! i screamed so hard! i couldnt even hear mr connor's voice warning me not to strain my vocal cords in my head. when time was up the score was still 1 all. so we moved on to extra time. still one all. so penalty shooutout. we lost 5-6. i was paralysed with disbelief. msged brandon. then i saw hanisah. who cried. haha. emotional. anyway i was in such a fould mood then.
so i refused to meet up with hanis. so i dint answer any of her calls. left her a msg and then ignored her for the rest of the night. i know. sore loser. big baby. whatever. r really was in no mood. so me, fai, hanisah and vibha took sixteen to macs nearby (im so sick of macs) to haf dinner. i left my mum an sms to inform her of my whereabouts. saw a cute thing. haaah. sulked the whole night basically. then after dinner, vibs waited for her mum while the rest of us walked to another bus stop to either (a) take a cab home or (b) take whatever bus tt came. so 12 came first (lucky aysha). had a nice long ride home fretting about what our parents would do to us when we at last got home.
fai and hanisah got off at tana so i had quite a fair bit of time to tell ashraf the results. at my void deck: abah calls. "where are you??"
"at the void deck"
"where have u been?" *mumblemumble*
"soccer match" then reception was iffy so i hung up. met him upstairs. "where have u been??" he asks again. "what kind of soccer match ends so late? soccer is not important is it?! you're nvr to attend another soccer match! at least if u were studying i can understand..." (continues nagging) at least my mum was asleep so it was one parent less nagging at me. i was quite irritated at tt time. okay so he doesn't care about the results. and how heartbroken i was that we lost. and tt i was still in a state of disbelief. okay. whatever. so i sulked in my room. and read hanis's note. i SO. have to make it up to her.

happy birthday ameera!

-aysha

Sunday, May 22, 2005

i have found the solution.
zikir.

-aysha

Saturday, May 21, 2005

so today i went for haney's wedding at tamps cc. she's gorgeous(: shamelessly took a photo with her. haha. mr zain yoshida wasnt as hot as expected. in fact, he wasnt hot at all. wasted. the food wasnt too great. the water was the sort which would stain your teeth. so i drank like one sip to prevent choking. haha. then then thenn i met fai.. yes dear, ur hair rocked. and fai thinks she's gorgeous so.. i let her believe what she wanted(: man im so sweet. fai, me and fa took pics and tried to get a picture of this cuteman at the outside. agh. dunno why the camera cudnt capture a nice shot. darn. oo it was so nice catching up with you faibabyy! tuesday night thirtyone after ur hockey dont forgettt! weeeeeeee

fa, what did i do to you?

-aysha

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

aaaaha.
guess who's in malay dance.
hmphf.
im in four ccas now. if only i could buy time..

-aysha

Saturday, May 14, 2005

its been another hectic week!! guitar rehearsals the whole week! and i was sleepy all the time tt i resorted to wearing glasses.. the concert last night wasnt as boring as i expected. since i only performed for like 5 minutes out of 2 hours i could watch most of the other performances.. and to feel relieved tt i wasnt on stage anymore.. i didnt get like stage fright or anything. wasnt even nervous. strangely. but due to my incompetency i screwed up. i played a wrong note. and it wasnt like slightly wrong. it was waaay off. and i plucked the string so hard. oops. but then after the whole thing my friends all said the stuff sounded right.. so nice to have so many people supporting us=) all the gd luck smses and the go sharifahs and the flowerss! haha.. thanks everyone! i met isabel law jia en last night. hee. i still rmb her full name. ah the chio thing. i dunno how mama couldve thought she was evangeline. ick. mr francis conducted us for the lastest time last night. quite sad. i'll miss his gayness. haha.. ohh. happy advanced birthday to sher li!
went for gema temasek earlier today. totally braced myself for the feeling of intense stupidity BUT. i understood the whole thing. ahaha. i really need to find a way to boost my own ego. finally got to meet prap again.. felt abit nostalgic seeing her on stage.. i miss the drama days. and my drama gang. people change so fast. and drastically. its sad. fai had straight hair today. quite cool. haha. i saw her lolly. a million times better than the previous crush, babe. giant improvement. God has at last blessed you with acceptable taste in boys. i met nadiah as well. its still very odd that she doesnt go to the same school anymore. hm. the tj malay community is so large compared to vj's. envy. i feel pretty today.
im eating cocopops with warm milk. quite unpleasant.
random thought: i cannot stand to see girls who wear their hipsters so low that their butt cracks can be seen. number one its disgusting. number two its inappropriate. number three its rude. *blinks*
i kinda miss hafiz. i wonder what hes doing now.

-aysha

Sunday, May 08, 2005

For Mama:

*clears throat* Before I begin, I'd like to inform you something:
You're so lucky; you raised an angel out of me you know.
The existence of my madrasah project I am conveniently forgetting.
Just so I can go on and on about why I love you so=)

Firstly I'd like to say thank you for your patience
For listening to me even when you're not interested and for tolerating my nonsense
Thank you for helping me grow up and mature as a teen
By opening my eyes to the brutal reality of life (if you know what I mean)

Undoubtedly you do nag incessantly
And punish me for things that are trivial, to me at least.
Sometimes you make me feel so kecik hati,
Especially when you misunderstand me.

I must say though you're way cool unlike other mothers.
I mean, whose mum would join in checking out hot male strangers?
Plus, you were the on who taught me to lie.
Please lah, don't try to deny!

Oh and thank you mama,
For sharing your Alhabshi genes.
Yalah, yalah you jambu lah..
Just for today I'll believe in your wishful dreams.

Thanks for testing me all the shithead peribahasa,
Such that I got an e8 instead of an f9 last year.
Thanks for letting me buy that guitar.
You better go for my concert ah.

You taught me to respect you,
Tell me off when I was out line.
You taught me to recognise that boys can really suck.
But then you also told me that my first crush was like.. yuck.

Your patience inspires me to be like you:
A selfless woman, the epitome of altruism.
Someday I hope to be a mother as good as you.
Then teach my daughter to masak cincaru.

I know I've not been the perfect daughter.
I've done things less than appropriate.
I wish I could erase all my dosa.
Do forgive me for breaking your heart.

So you say you want a break from being a mother?
That's a fine way to spend your day, I agree.
No need for vacuuming and cleaning up after us slobs,
Or painstakingly teach Mohammed to calculate seven times three.

You are denied the responsibility of doing stuff in the kitchen,
Like washing the dishes or cleaning the cupboards.
So please dutifully stand by your decision.
Nagging is prohibited.

Happy Mothers' Day

For Khala:

You are as much a mother as you are an aunt

You too nag at me as much as you want

You were there for me whenever i needed you

okla okla you're jambu too

Happy Mothers' Day

I heart the both of youu!

-aysha

Saturday, May 07, 2005

its been awhile since ive last updated.

its been a hectic week.

very hectic..

to all of you free people who can afford to sit around and whine tt ur bored and tt u havent got anything to do: appreciate sleep.
haha.
pw sucks.

on a lighter note, i went for tpj's songfest yest. not as sucky as expected=)
after 3 periods of tutorial doing last minute bio mugging and the pointless bio lecture assessment that i totally screwed up and my lunch, i marched my butt straight to the sofa in the library to sleep. and i stayed there for three entire hours. haha. until ashraf called and ruined my most deserved rest. i finally got up and away from my sofa after tt and spent some time rotting with jasmine. who was GLoating about how yr2s din haf any more SPAs and shorter days. *rolls eyes* yeah yeah. whatever. if they can survive year one then i dont see why i shudnt be able to.

so blablabla vib's day ended and we went to her place for food and for her to change. as expected, the infamous vijesh was there. he is undoubtedly a cute character. however, id nvr want to be left alone with him for any longer than ten mins. i might just pull all of my hair out. haha. luckily vibha's mom came home as i was reaching somebody-please-kill-me-now stage. vibha's mom (aka spectacular dhokla maker) dropped us off at tm where we got flowers b4 we made our way to tpj. to last minutely receive my ticket from ashraf.

i had totally prepared to not know anyone there except nandz and ashraf. but i met quite alot of old friends. apart from the MILLIONS of ex-tkgirls, i met masturah, fatmah alkaff (and her cedarian friend), aqmar, nadzirah, fauzie.. oo and i finally got to see (and speak with) oh-so-famous pavel. haha. hes so not hot lah.

anyhoos, the audi was like a freezer. i nearly died in my skirt. egh. and the seats killed my back! ya so anyway the lousy emcees introduced the first official competitor: fatin=) oh she totally rocks. i knew there and then she was going to win. (she did btw) then there were more soloists. then there was this girl named fahimah who sang the "aint no mountain hiiiiigh enough.. aint no valley lowwww enough" song. and well. i felt extremely embarrassed for her. *blinks*

then the next bit was the group vocalists. one group did the "come on come on" song and they were really bad. ahah. but but there were good performances too. some beach boys group was very entertaining. and the crowd was very on. they kept saying "baik ahh" ehm.

kak nab performed in one of the bands.. she was the violinist.. such a shame i dint get to meet her after the whole show.. thennnn it was ashraf's band(: ahh they rocked. ha and ashraf totally knew it. big showoff. wahaha.. and marlia is like supercool lah. haha. and they won the band category.. duh. and by then i nearly died of tiredness. so i went straight home to sleep. yalah. loser lah. whatever. oh and

happy birthday fauzie!

-aysha