Saturday, July 30, 2005
it took me six months to get used to vj life. maybe i become more wary of my surroundings as i grow older.. i mean. tk was like an instant home.
i think perhaps i think too much. its quite a burden to have a lot on your mind and no one you could really talk to. they say its a girl thing. girls need to talk it out to feel better. and yeah i think its true. cause everyday that i keep this to myself it just eats me from inside and it gets harder to live with it. but theres little else i could do. there is no other option.
my playing days are nearly over. abah took the liberty of reminding me that my self-declared mugging period begins next week. not a pleasant thought. strangely, i feel ready to start focussing. its about time anyway. the worst thing that can happen to me is failing every paper for promos and end up taking geogrpahy next year. (my love for geography cannot be explained with words)
i feel distant.
have i been keeping a distance from you?
i think i have. and i dont know why.
i need a good read. now.
-aysha